The DeadBlackCat

My own Salvation

2007-10-27T17:05:00.000-07:00

I seek in the darkness
While my light left me,
I fell into a deep sleep of obscurity,
Forsaken&Abandoned

Lachrymosed but yet i was enraged
I felt betrayed
However those feelings deserted me
& I was used to it.

Forlorn but who cares?
Now,without you...
I've been living in a euphoric dream

Sacrifice

2007-10-18T02:58:00.000-07:00

Another step i take
leads to no where
It's the same
Nothing has changed in you

You turned into something that I've despised again;
Self-centred,
Ignorrant...
Naive...

I want to go back to believing you
I want to go back to believing in everything

You've ruined yourself,
Don't blame me
This is the path you've chosen
I hope your future won't crumble

I cry in agony
As I wait...
Waiting for my life to go back to pieces
AGAIN

~DeadBlackCat

My S0ul wander aimlessly once more
As I fell into oblivion

The Sanctity of Love

2007-09-23T21:53:00.001-07:00

You love me.
But you don't know who I am.
My shadow,my past.
I want you to know.
Who am I.

I fall into oblivion as u embrace me.
Your warmth,your love,your tender care.
I will never let you go.
I cherish every moment of it.

Will it last?
Will you be with me?
Will our love go on forever?
Well,that depend on us,doesn't it?

~The Santity of Love

Vampire Realm~The trinity of the Death Lovers

2007-08-01T05:42:00.000-07:00

VAMPIRE REALM

Trying to hide from the shining Sun,
The bitter world laugh at us.
Being kept in the darkness,
Is the path that we have chosen.
And now,
The new life begin

THE TRINITY OF THE DEATH LOVERS

THE BLOOD THAT CHAINED THEM TOGETHER
HERE I STAND UPON THE FAITHFUL COUPLE,
DECLARING THEIR LOVE...
THAT WILL LAST FOREVER.

Be wed, Raphaelle & Lumiere

THIS IS US

2007-07-04T01:13:00.000-07:00

I swim through the crowd,
Finding my own kind
I opened the antique door...
And there they were,waiting

Dressed mostly in BLACK AND RED,
all of us waited patiently...
FoR the next 'creatures' to arrive on stage

The moonlight shone
REI is their name
We chanted "REI! REI! REI!"
Waiting for them to play

Leading us with their MUSIC
The crowd moved gracefully...
Our spirits were awoken
Hands were up in the air
Trying to reach for something that seemed impossible
However as ONE
I feel that everything can be done

They call us freaks
They call us haunting
But this is who we are
You can't change us no matter what you say
Look down on us if you want...
BUT DO YOU DARE TO LOOK DOWN ON US AS A CROWD?
DARE YOU CALL US FREAKS WHEN WE ARE AS ONE?

WE ARE HUMANS WITH SOUL
JUST LIKE ALL OF YOU
ITS JUST THAT WE ARE A DIFFERENT KIND OF PEOPLE
TRYING TO CREATE A PLACE CALL HOME

Silent

2007-06-18T07:33:00.000-07:00

Thinking about the upcomin battle
I put a lot of thoughts into it
Am I strong enough?
Will I be able to win in the up coming battle?

You wonder alone
I silent my thoughts
You blame yourself
I forgave your sins

Do not mistaken...
I hate you not
For the past is the past
Now we head for the future
NANKURUNAISA

Somehow I feel so tired
Will I be defeated?
Or will I die,winning?

Anyway, I still want to live
I think you feel the same way too
Till then you and I will survive
To create our own paradise

~Sekai wo~

The Silent Night

2007-06-12T21:22:00.000-07:00

To be able to trust once again
To be able to believe,
Given another chance
Feel's good, doesn't it?

Enduring the pain in life,
we need someone to hold onto,
something that we can believe in...
To put a smile on our heart...

Admiring the beautiful moon,
we waited for someone to show us,
a bright shining world...
SEKAI WO

Two Minds...One Soul

2007-06-07T21:56:00.000-07:00

Avoiding the Sun
We seek the Shadow
It overwhelms us
With a dark soul

Bleeding inside
I never want anyone to know
Sometimes I wonder
Why I love my sorrows

Maybe it's because it means so much to me
or maybe I never knew what true hapiness is

But happiness never last forever
SOrrows do
Maybe eternity is what I seek for
That's why rage is important too

Trust never last for her either
Hatred never hesitate to come
It conquers her mind and heart
However her soul doubt it will control her

I'm not broken
You can't fix me
Listen to her cries
That is all that you need to do

Never did I want you to change me
Coz this is who I am
This is what we are

Pieces of her sorrow is everywhere
That's what is left of her
For Now and Forever

Reunited

2007-06-07T21:51:00.000-07:00

Once again
I walked down that road
But this time,
I'm not alone

Together
We have chosen this path
There's no turning back
Here we stand as one
Fighting alongside each other

We are reunited

Live on

2007-06-05T01:18:00.000-07:00

There he was,
lying beside me unconsciously
Bleeding

I silently waited for him to be conscious again

I looked at my claws,
covered with his blood

Did I killed him?
I wonder
Sad?
Afraid I was not
Satisfied?
Yes I am

I killed the Slayer
That vicious side of him
Avoiding his heart,
I aimed at his right chest
He felt it deep
Although it was not
Maybe it was because he was weak,
Mentally

Those eyes of compassion
Is what I want to see
Those eyes full of hatred and rage
Makes you a Slayer,
Which was never meant to be

I want to see your smile again
The joy that you have always shown
How we show our emotions is different,
Yes I agree
But deep within
We feel the same sometimes
Its just that you're better at showing it

There are things that we seek can be impossible
But for me to kill that Slayer of yours
Is an exception

You gave in to him too early
Reminisce about the innocent lives you have killed
Can't you feel their pain?

You won't die
No...I won't let you
You will live
And you will fight that Slayer
Till' then I will be with you
To make sure you'll be STRONGER

It's not time yet

2007-06-04T00:49:00.000-07:00

There you are,holding on to your sword
Where the tip of the blade is close to your stomach
Hara-kiri just as I thought

I kneeled down beside you
And grabbed your blade
Stubbornly,you refuse to let go

My palm touches the edge of that sword of yours
It travels forcefully until it reaches the tip
My hand bleed badly

I touch your face with my bloody hand
Your eyes turned red,reflecting the colour of my blood
Tears rolled down your cheeks

"I will not allow you to die yet
You must pay for what you have done
Never should you run away
You've turned into a merciless Slayer
But now you kneeled before me,hopelessly
Begging me to allow you to commit hara-kiri
Why have you gone berserk once more when I was away?
What happened to the promise that we make?

If you won't answer,fine then
Show me your that Slayer side of yours!

If you can't defeat the Slayer within you,
I will not hesitate to help you
I vow to KILL that Slayer
And you will learn what is it that you lack

If you were to die,
it will be bacause you die under my hands
Not because you've been killed by your own blade!"

Blood still dripping from my hand,
My Samurai,You will not be forsaken
Bloodshed will not come to an end,
Remember,this is the path that YOU and I have CHOSEN

The Cat and The Slayer

2007-06-03T18:52:00.000-07:00

The full m00n reveals itself
A figure appeared

The Night gets colder
The DarknesS surrounds her

She have returned
Stronger,
Colder,
Darker

Strong in person,
she lets none control her power,
her mind,
her soul...

She dances deathly,
holding a sword in her hand...
Searching for her Samurai,
to see what he have achieved in the end

"Appear before me,"
Whispered the DeadBlackCat
But in return all she heard was a shivering,
lost whimper

Following the cries,
she came upon a Samurai..no..
a Slayer that had lost himself,
Crying to be saved

DeadBlackCat stood there
Shamely,it was her Samurai
But she showed no sign of anger,
No sign of regrets,
Instead she held out her hand
And held him up

~To Be replied/continued By Seishiro~

Harukana Yakusoku~Distant Promise~

2007-05-30T00:47:00.000-07:00

My Journey has begun
I will take my leave now

I've waited for this day to come
Some wish that it'll be over soon

You will see,Seishiro-san
That when I leave
You will remember me
And you will still feel my lurking soul around you

No matter how far I go
DeadBlackCat is still alive
Her soul live on
So did her conscious

Deep within
You will understand,
From my departure
Both YOU and I will become stronger

The Promise we make
Will never fade away

We shall meet again
Under the full m00n
That marks my return

Harukana Yakusoku,
The Distant Promise

My departure

2007-05-29T04:58:00.000-07:00

When you return,
Sad to say its my time to depart
Sometimes it seems that this battle I need to fight alone

Sadness is never my weakness
Rage is never my enemy
In fact they are my greatest strength,
Always giving me a reason to fight to the end

One thing that most people do not understand,
Including you,
That I am like the night
And you are like the moon

Reflecting the light,
You made me realise that it doesn't hurt to smile

But what you seek most
Is the smile from my heart
My heart always feels lost
Because of the bloodshed I am going thru
Not all my grief and pain is to be shared
There are still lots that I keep from you

Do not stop to protect
Do not stop fighting
When we meet again
I promise you that both of us will be stonger
Not only physically
But also spiritually

I will disappear for this night
The full moon will mark my return
Till then you will wait for me
And we will fight together again

I've found you

2007-05-28T03:29:00.000-07:00

You kneeled before me,
you have returned
Covered in blood,
you shouted
"I failed!I failed!I deserve to die!"

I pointed my Sword at you
You glanced at me with fear
I stared at you
And you lowered your head

"The memories of the dead will keep on coming
Still,you have to keep on living
Avenge their Death but not for me
Until then you will see
Your comrades will sleep peacefully,
knowing that someone out there to fulfill their dreams
To get revenge upon the devil you have fought before
When the time comes
We will fight together
Although you vowed that I'm your master
We are One
And that is something you should remember"

Even in Death

2007-05-28T02:40:00.000-07:00

They don't know you
Neither do they know me
So what makes them think that
they have the right to judge us?

Our love is Forbidden they say
Who cares?
I will stay forever with you

But they took you away from me one day
And now DeadBlackCat rise upon the living guilty souls,
Its time to SLAY

Fallen angels at my feet
I call upon those who obey me

Suddenly I hear you whispering
"I'm sorry...I am not able to live"

Down with my knees
Tears of blood dripped
I clenched my fist

The sorrowful sea dances
I follow its lead

DIE! For those who took you away
But in my heart,
where you have always stayed,
Will keep on beating
Will keep on living
Will keep on loving you

EVEN IN DEATH

We stand as ONE

2007-05-24T05:14:00.000-07:00

I'm going away
To find you
You fought alone
Without thinking thru

"Abide with me"
Is my only demand
Can't you see?
We're alive coz we stand as one

Forsaken me?
You must not...
And you never will

Ima sugisatta kisetsu wo kazoe hitorikiri no yoru nani wo omou?
*What do you think of now, all alone at night as you count the seasons past?*

Shinratsu na yo no naka wa shinjitsu wo kiratte
*The bitter world laughs,tempting you*
That's why I'm coming
To fight beside you

I've awaken your soul
You've drawn your sword
We will fight to the last
Win or Lose?
I'm not gonna decide

Sweet Sacrifice

2007-05-21T01:54:00.000-07:00

I look at your corpse,
Its lying down in front of me
I gazed at my hand,
Crimson blood
I stared hard at the enemy,
He was grinning slyly

Given the Sword
I was supposed to PROTECT
But I failed...
and you died

"Don't kill yourself,LIVE" those last words you gave to me
I shall avenged your DEATH
That is a MUST

I chase the enemy
He ran and laugh
But not for long when he realised the chase is over
I thrust the Sword through his stomach
And it travels its way to your heart
Your laughter faded...

I grinned and my fangs showed
As you groaned in pain
I watched you die
I watched you suffer
MY HATE FOR YOU,LEADS TO YOUR DEATH
NOW I CAN SLEEP PEACEFULLY,FOREVER

Fate(part 1)

2007-05-16T03:33:00.000-07:00

If i love you,would you love me in return?
If i hate you,would you present me to saturn?

Hate is just a word,i know it is absurd
I still love you,eventhough im third

You capture my soul with your eyes,
I capture your heart with my smile

The coldness in you,it surrounds me
however im still stuck at three

"i love you,my dear and i just want your love and your hate"
i whispered and started to move away," i've given up on this love---"
You denied my words with a kiss through your heart i listened,"My love,you have not coz this is fate"

The radiance shines on us we are lost for words
my eyes pierced through yours and i can see all those maidens you have hurt

Tears from your eyes i could see,"oh please dont just let me be
Dont let time turns back on its own,don't let this be my destiny"

He fell on his knees begging to be safe
I reached down to him and said,"forgive me honey" and send my last wave

Death Lullaby

2007-05-16T03:25:00.000-07:00

Midnight's here,black queen knight
All ready to commit regicide
I never knew the pain i endured
is the open doors to suicide
She put me through hell,she caged me in a burning cell
She made me begging for death
I've learned early that the only thing i could control was my mind
She took that away from me
oh god cant you see?
I see the flash of blades from the corner of my eye
Was it really my time to die?
Claws onto me,the thoughts of all
my life rushing through my brain
Heart broken like a shattered glass
With the pain which keeps coming back
she betrayed me,she ignored me
Hatred builds up,it cant stop
I'm fading,my vision is shadow
Blaming myself for another death in the time i have left

Dokomademo (Endless)

2007-05-16T03:19:00.000-07:00

I patiently waited,bedside
For the Death of today

How can the darknez feels so wrong?
All my fears turn to rage
I sleep to die
Erase the silence
Erase my life
Our burning ashes blackened the day
A world of nothingness blows me away

I'm losing my mind
And you juz stand there
Watch me as my world divides

God help me carry on
Show me it's alright
To lose my heart n not my eyes
Navigate me to my darknez
Show me the ending to my story

*I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answers
But I found none*

Sometimez even the DeadBlackCat is hopelez

2007-05-15T01:52:00.000-07:00

I was given a sword
Yet I can't protect the ones I love
I'm uselez

I was given a pencil
Yet I can't use it properly
But still I want to control it

I was given a chance to live
However I feel that my presence is not needed
Sometimez I just want to end it all

I wonder if everything's gonna be okay...
Coz it seems to me
Everything is not
But I intend to believe it is

Here in the darknez I know myself
This is me...
Never being able to hold on to things
Everything always slips away
Everything
Subete...

She's not perfect
Plz dun think She is
Now the DeadBlackCat tries to accept herself
Soshite
She is struggling

Now even the DeadBlackCat wonder to live or to die
Is she supposed to?

I told her to live
Bcoz if she die,
I will die with her

If this happen...
Her name will never be remembered
Pieces of my creation is gone to waste

But I always remind myself to live
So did the DeadBlackCat who promise to stay with me
No matter how fake our smile is on our face
Our will to live has grown stronger
For now we know that we need each other

I trust her the most
For she will not betray me
She love me the most
As she knows I will stay strong for her

Until you see our names
Until then you will see ME

I'm living in a world full of LIES

2007-05-11T05:22:00.000-07:00

I smile at u,my dear
But deep down inside I noe u're lying to me
When u said I still love you so...
I juz accepted u...although
Knowing tat is not the truth

I look up at the sky and asked,
"Why are we lost?"
Now touch this sky, this darkness
Lead me, make this sorrow, this pain
Disappear

I chose my own path
You've chosen the other,
Now you regretted it
Just accept this crime, this punishment
And
You can't run away

Starting tomorrow
I'd given up on this love, but...
It will not be easy for me to forget
It's so bittersweet

I miss you, but I won't return

Everything
Everything is gone...
Disapear

P.S:I took most of the Jap part frm Kat-tun lyrics...
I dun noe how to speak Jap...

A Sword...A Life

2007-05-06T23:07:00.000-07:00

Life is like a knife you say
But somehow I think it's more than that
To me...
It's like a SWORD

A Sword in my eyes
Shows that I still have a long way to go
And when I reach the edge
I've won...I've succeeded
That's when I stand with pride
Along with the ones I've loved

You may not see me smiling
But my heart says I am
Every obstacles that I've faced
Is like within the length of the sword

A Sword is a Weapon
No matter how much you think of it
The question is...
How will you use it?

I chose to live'
To fulfill my dreams
Just like a Samurai who chose the path
To use his sword to PROTECT

Shinjicha ikenai to sosonokashi warau
But lies lead you to nowhere
Truth leads you to the answer

I HATE
I LIE
I MAKE MISTAKES
I'm just a human...
I still am

But I admited...I apologize
...Bcoz I know I'm human...

If you fight to win,You'll never make it
One day along the way you will meet people...
People who raise their swords to protect...
They live happily...

Sometimes they fail...yes I agree
But they tried their best for the one they protect
They died with honour...

Don't you feel good when you know someone came?
Came for you?
To save you...
You earn their love...
They earn satisfaction

I move on with life Until the journey is finished
Death will come for me

By that time ,life will be beautiful
Like the beauty of a Sword

When my life end,
it's at the sharp end of a Sword
With that,
I pass the sword to someone else,
for them to continue what they've not fulfilled...

A Sword protects...we can too
But it never seem to die,did it?
Well...we do...

SHINDE MIRU!!!

2007-05-02T02:01:00.000-07:00

I tot everythg was settled but
he couldn't leave us alone
A Devil is trying to break us...
Will he suceed?
My answer is NO
I won't let him be...

Waiting for the day to come
When will he go away?
Is he sick in the mind?
Tsk...I think he's just insane
'GO TO HELL!' i said BUT
who am I to decide?
Sometimez i still wonder..
Is there enuf room for him to change?
If there's no hope...
I will just let it be
coz God knows wad HE's doing
and He'll take him away one day...
Away frm my family
Away frm ME...

He hurt you
He pierced through your heart
I can't stand it
I can't just wait and see...
All the lifes he had taken
All the hopes he washed away
He won't be forgiven...
May the Almighty take him one day

*dedicated to some1 i knew...EXPERIENCED!~ muahhaaa...dun ask anymore questions...

*DOKO MADE IKERU? BUCHIATARU MADE WA*
[HOW FAR CAN U GO? B4 I SHOOT U]

no more

2007-03-09T03:22:00.000-08:00

No more u
to be here wit me
You've gone forever
And tats how its gonna be...

From me to u my fren...
Treasure wad u have
Even if u dun see ur friends cry
Ur friends smile
Cherish it
Treasure it

U noe I care
And tats juz gd enough
Its hard for me to cry u a river
But trust me,
My heart easily melts

Gone frm u for now
I trust u,My friend
If u need anythg
juz call d DeadBlackCat...

......

2007-03-03T05:00:00.000-08:00

'Everythg is alright
everythg is okay'
thats juz so easy for u to say

Morning seems to be d happiest time
When night falls,everythg turns ard
My mask has been broken
And my soul has been unleashed

My heart is lyk a moon
Beauty is seen
but u'll be askin soon
is tat wad my life mean?

Still wondering who i am
tears of blood dripping
im moving towards life without an aim
forever i hope i'll be sleeping

*its lyk d only company i seek is misery all ard*

The End of Me?

2007-02-14T01:51:00.000-08:00

You are everything that I never want to be
You tried so hard but you still can't see me
You hate me for who I am
You want to kill me as fast as you can

I grinned widely as u pierced that sword through my flesh
I stared at you with the eyes of death
You wonder why I did not die
You screamed at me, "Why didn't you cry?!"

You wanted to see my dead body
But you never knew that I'm already as dead as can be
Staring upon you is the dead soul
Whose body is ice-cold

You shivered and ran
I did not choose to chase you, my friend

In the end there is still no end of me
Sometimes death is never meant to be^^

~deadblackcat~

Gone [by Kristina]

2007-02-14T01:44:00.000-08:00

Open wounds,broken heart,
will anyone be able to heal me?
Kiss me, DEATH, coz i know im afraid to live.
Save me frm everythg
I dun wanna be killed by another human being,
place my heart in a chest, so no one will be able to hurt me
Breathing heavily,can't you see?
I dun wanna lock myself up anymore
I juz want my feelings to sore
Heaven,call upon me,Angels screaming my name.
Promise me please,tat it won't be the same.

Should i let it slip deep in my soul?
or should i juz cut it open
and save myself frm everythg?

~Kristina~

Fading away

2007-02-13T04:25:00.000-08:00

fading away...

for a long time i've realised tat i was drifting away
from everything tat i love, everything tat i had
wondering wads left of me...
all i say is wait and see

pieces of me started to disappear
as i waited for somebody to come
knowing tat no one will appear,
i sat in the dark corner and all i think abt is I'M DONE.

all i live for is juz for me
all i ever cherish for is my dark soul
all the friends tat i made...i juz realized
they're my shadows tat juz have been cast

all tat i have now is juz me
shall i fade away one day
i wonder if any1 will care to see
coz its a pain in the ass to say

NO ONE CARES THAT I'M JUZ FADING AWAY

~deadblackcat~

Shadow

2007-02-11T07:52:00.000-08:00

wAtching ur every move,

makes me wonder...

u are me but yet...

not really

call upon me as u wish

there i stood before u

every move tat i made was controlled

non-other den u

u were my fren till then

U were my shadow forever now

~deadblackcat~

Manga Class during Christmas Eve

2006-12-24T06:12:00.000-08:00

24.12.06

It's Christmas Eve...but we still want Manga Class to go on.
None of us in tat class actually celebrate Christmas.
I was wearing kinda goth tat tym...
Ms Roxanne(manga teacher) is wearing so funky n punk.
She reli have a great fashion taste.
Me,Wan Yee,Melissa and Enhui brought lots of candies.
Ms Roxanne too.
Melissa make us all cat ears 4 Christmass present...haha...
Its very cute actually.
Sandy didnt want Mel to take any photos of her while she
was wearing the cat ears...
Bu atlast we all took pics with cat ears on...
So did Mr Quack...
he look cute..LOL
After that,we took neoprints 2gether...
It was very fun...
Me n Wan Yee had our cat ears on the whole journey...every1 was lyk staring...
and meowing too....hahaazz
N there's tis guy who actually said to me,"Nice ears".
haha...Had a great time today thx 2 every1!